Flowers & Conversations

randumb

2012-02-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

when it comes to matter of hearts, I am a newbie.

I went out on yet another group date set up by my cousins and it was again fun. . and its no credit to the guy again. Its a drag to have anything pre-arranged for me. Honestly, i went with a heavy heart due largely to my reluctance to be set up again. Plus, i met the guy before and know his past, AND know that its not possible between me and him.

there is not much going on in my life now except for work and family. There has been times when I wondered how long things will remain the same, and if I can continue to be as I am when the single girls become the minority in my cliques.

my parents think it is a concern that i am not giving chances, going out more. my colleagues wonder how am i going to meet somebody with my homey lifestyle.

i know you dont wait for chances. and especially, no one is gonna fall from the sky without me putting in the effort.

some people make it seem so easy. but not for me.

i started out this friendship determined to not play mind games. but i am beginning to and what really sucks, is that i think both parties get hurt in the end.

Trading your pain...

2012-01-03T20:04:00.001+08:00

Trading in your pain

The pain of a lousy boss, of careless mistakes, of insufficient credit. The pain of instability, of bullying, of inadequate tools. The pain of poor cash flow, corrossive feedback and work that isn't worthy of you.

Pain is part of work. And it leads to two mistakes.

The notion that you can trade your way out of pain.

"If I just get a little bigger, a little more famous, a little richer--then the pain will go away."

This notion creates a cycle of dissatisfaction, an unwillingness to stick it out. There's always a pain-free gig right around the corner, so screw this, let's go try that.

The truth is that pain is everywhere, in every project and in every relationship and in every job. Wandering from one to another merely wastes your energy.

The other choice, though, is:

Embracing your current pain and avoiding newer, unknown pains.

This is precisely the opposite mistake. This leads to paralysis. Falling in love with the pain you've got as a way of avoiding unknown future pains gets you stuck, wasting your potential.

As usual, when confronted with two obvious choices, it's the third choice that pays.

- the Seth blog

I don't get what is the third choice, but I could relate to this article in so many instances..

lesson 101: the things we can't have

2011-12-07T17:29:00.001+08:00

entry protected at wordpress due to the sensitivity of the issue

A little update

2011-12-05T00:47:00.002+08:00

The datezila has explode. There are some people from the past that has revisited, but if it did not work out then I doubt it will work out now. I am avoiding the issues here by not replying to their smses, which I really should be cos its way rude. Sighz.

Yen will be rolling her eyes at this moment, and wondering why I am not giving them a chance and more importantly, giving myself a chance at finding love. I might just replied "Oks" to them tomorrow morning, impulsively. Haha we shall see.

I am keeping my finger cross on some other happenings as well, but nothing much to share at this point.

This is the last month of 2011, a pretty short work month with the family trip in 2 weeks. Have not make any resolution for 2012, but I will definitely remember this year as one with many happenings but no 结果。哈哈

MUST WATCH!

2011-12-05T00:07:00.003+08:00

If <那些年，我们追的女孩> is the bittersweet from guys' perspective, then <初恋那件小事> is the girl's. Never mind that its in Thai, first love/crushes are universal. Watched it on Fun-sion and after watching it, I swear you will want to find some one to crush on! :P Most of the movie like 那些年 happen in school, a period that had past and would not find it way into our life now. . .

I don't know if i ever really "strive" in love like all the movies. 努力的改变自己，向上，变漂亮，只因为有可能。。that he feels the same way too.

in due course

2011-11-30T21:52:00.004+08:00

i am going _________ tomorrow

:)

Tresses

2011-11-27T16:53:00.002+08:00

My hair stylist is no longer working at the salon. And now I don't know where and how to track him down?! Majorly upset about this. On the bright side, I have no plans to do anything to my hair in the near future.

超难过

残忍

2011-11-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

This week has been activities packed. I am tired by the discovery stage, late nights, forced conversations and it doesn't help that I am feeling teeny weeny half- hearted on all these. The datezila in me are yearning to explore.

Beginning

2011-11-26T00:57:00.003+08:00

Something has been bothering me since the rather impromptu meet-up on Thursday. It got me falling back into like. SIGHZ. " what is my type?", "what makes him different from the rest?" been getting lots of such questions lately and I am find myself lost of words. What could aptly described what i feel inside? And how can i define some one into mere characteristics?

I am cynical that this is what i want. And I worry that its a classic case of you wanting what you cant have. If so, I worry about what will become of any relationship in the future.

Tomorrow will be an important date. I know I should not be placing such importance to our first one-to-one. But i wistfully think that if he can stir feelings in me like M.impoSsible, then it will *ahem* be easier. This probably give M.efforT too little credit and puts too much hope on a second meetup.

A friend once shared that "the one+" usually appear when you have many options. I laughed when I first heard it. It sound like a myth then. But now, I secretly hide under my optimistic blanket and hope its true. (+Not referring to the one you walk down the aisle with here)

The dates weekend

2011-11-13T23:17:00.005+08:00

This weekend has been different yet comfortable. I realize for both Saturday and Sunday, I had either start or end my day at ah ma house. As yen rightfully commented, my comfort zone.

Saturday's date was me gong out of the way to not have my way. I booked the tickets to a movie I have no real interest but knew it's the preferred movie for him. He offered to pay for dinner and I ate ramen with him again for the second time. Not a fan of ramen in Singapore but nevertheless convinced him and myself that it is ok. Dinner turn out not so bad, movie was alright too. I don't know.

" if it's normal to be distracted, in my own thoughts and doubts. If i can get past the MAIN hurdle and if having just a companion, is what I want. If I have gotten used to dating older and more financially stable men ( who say and do the right things ), and if I can move out of the everything taken care of dating. If at 26, it will be alright to still believe in love like I do. That heart flutters and to be with someone that I love no matter when and why. "

Sunday's was a blind date disguised as a group outing. Three girls one guy, and the intention for both of us to get to know each other. I saw his fb profile and he probably seen mine ( the modern age introduction). We had one enjoyable lunch, followed by a spontaneous trip to have the famous bean curd. Credits had to go to the two girls, who make the whole meeting causal , light and almost normal. For me, it definitely help with the couple of "practices" and that I was in a carefree and care less mood. All game for a good time. Honestly, the guy will have fulfill most of my "high" standards based upon appearance, character and values. ( Minus the missing single eye lid haha or that he is of the same age.)

So in the end, I could not help feeling perplexed this weekend. There no need for me to make a choice or whatnot, and I am equally thankful the datezillia in me have not felt the need to cut off all contact and future dates prematurely. Something which I am pretty good at, and roll eye worthy. When it dawned on me, I am afraid that I will never like somebody as much and as hard before.... I think I realise what has been bothering me. Just a companion isn't good enough.

On the other hand, I am awared what I know about those has been clouded and really not much to say of. That the likelihood of me being wrong than right, is way high. If you build your castles on sand, they are bound to disappoint.

Which sort are you?

2011-11-08T23:29:00.007+08:00

Hong Kong and Chengdu have been a lot of things roll into one... Its probably one of the longest holidays I had with friends :) So we shared a little, walked miles in cities and took back with us lots of pictures and memories. My favourite part of the trip - Massage! The cold weather and chilly breeze were bonus, so glad to be away from the sun and humid/rains back home.

The 26th birthday was a blast but somehow I think age has creep in slowly. In ways that one would not have imagine within circles. Comfort circle. Close circle of friends. Circle of trust. I am for one, somewhat affected though I like to think I can be indifferent.

Why do you always find myself in such situations? Yen questioned. Honestly I see them differently but nevertheless equally likely to lead to no where. There a few cliche idealism popping in my head these couple of days and I have also officially began nitpicking. No one is perfect,neither am I.

Some snippets from the original article which really reasonate with me at the moment..

The way I see it, there are four types of people when it comes to love.

The first finds a soulmate early in life. She marries him, they set up a home, have kids, and their life's pretty settled from then on.

The second type moves from one relationship onto another, and the relationships are more often than not fraught with woes. Life is one roller-coaster ride as she soars with joy and plunges into misery.

The third sort doesn't care for relationships, for she can be perfectly happy without a beloved by her side.

Then, there is the fourth type, who dearly wishes to be involved with someone, but can't find the right partner

..

If you love a person, you would want to show him off.

...

If you have any qualms at all about the person whom you say you love - perhaps you're embarrassed by the car he drives, or that he's balding or that he stutters or doesn't have a university degree - it can't be love.

....

The relationships I treasure started from chance encounters, never through a blind date or an arranged meeting. And for those who are single, fret not. Serendipitous meetings do happen.

Sumiko Tan
The Sunday Times, August 2, 1998

something i want to share & remember

2011-10-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

Dragon Mom: A Rare Childhood Disease Sparks Thoughts of Mortality and Existence

October 23, 2011

By Red State Gal

Conservative Feminist

A woman with a story, a child with a rare disability, a Dragon Mom and grappling with mortality–especially that of a child–are the subjects of Red State Gal’s Conservative Feminist this week. It’s well worth the time spent reading.

MY son, Ronan, looks at me and raises one eyebrow. His eyes are bright and focused. Ronan means “little seal” in Irish and it suits him.

I want to stop here, before the dreadful hitch: my son is 18 months old and will likely die before his third birthday. Ronan was born with Tay-Sachs, a rare genetic disorder. He is slowly regressing into a vegetative state. He’ll become paralyzed, experience seizures, lose all of his senses before he dies. There is no treatment and no cure.

How do you parent without a net, without a future, knowing that you will lose your child, bit by torturous bit?

Depressing? Sure. But not without wisdom, not without a profound understanding of the human experience or without hard-won lessons, forged through grief and helplessness and deeply committed love about how to be not just a mother or a father but how to be human.

Parenting advice is, by its nature, future-directed. I know. I read all the parenting magazines. During my pregnancy, I devoured every parenting guide I could find. My husband and I thought about a lot of questions they raised: will breast-feeding enhance his brain function? Will music class improve his cognitive skills? Will the right preschool help him get into the right college? I made lists. I planned and plotted and hoped. Future, future, future.

We never thought about how we might parent a child for whom there is no future. The prenatal test I took for Tay-Sachs was negative; our genetic counselor didn’t think I needed the test, since I’m not Jewish and Tay-Sachs is thought to be a greater risk among Ashkenazi Jews. Being somewhat obsessive about such matters, I had it done anyway, twice. Both times the results were negative.

Our parenting plans, our lists, the advice I read before Ronan’s birth make little sense now. No matter what we do for Ronan — choose organic or non-organic food; cloth diapers or disposable; attachment parenting or sleep training — he will die. All the decisions that once mattered so much, don’t.

All parents want their children to prosper, to matter. We enroll our children in music class or take them to Mommy and Me swim class because we hope they will manifest some fabulous talent that will set them — and therefore us, the proud parents — apart. Traditional parenting naturally presumes a future where the child outlives the parent and ideally becomes successful, perhaps even achieves something spectacular. Amy Chua’s “Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother” is only the latest handbook for parents hoping to guide their children along this path. It’s animated by the idea that good, careful investments in your children will pay off in the form of happy endings, rich futures.

But I have abandoned the future, and with it any visions of Ronan’s scoring a perfect SAT or sprinting across a stage with a Harvard diploma in his hand. We’re not waiting for Ronan to make us proud. We don’t expect future returns on our investment. We’ve chucked the graphs of developmental milestones and we avoid parenting magazines at the pediatrician’s office. Ronan has given us a terrible freedom from expectations, a magical world where there are no goals, no prizes to win, no outcomes to monitor, discuss, compare.

But the day-to-day is often peaceful, even blissful. This was my day with my son: cuddling, feedings, naps. He can watch television if he wants to; he can have pudding and cheesecake for every meal. We are a very permissive household. We do our best for our kid, feed him fresh food, brush his teeth, make sure he’s clean and warm and well rested and ... healthy? Well, no. The only task here is to love, and we tell him we love him, not caring that he doesn’t understand the words. We encourage him to do what he can, though unlike us he is without ego or ambition.

Ronan won’t prosper or succeed in the way we have come to understand this term in our culture; he will never walk or say “Mama,” and I will never be a tiger mom. The mothers and fathers of terminally ill children are something else entirely. Our goals are simple and terrible: to help our children live with minimal discomfort and maximum dignity. We will not launch our children into a bright and promising future, but see them into early graves. We will prepare to lose them and then, impossibly, to live on after that gutting loss. This requires a new ferocity, a new way of thinking, a new animal. We are dragon parents: fierce and loyal and loving as hell. Our experiences have taught us how to parent for the here and now, for the sake of parenting, for the humanity implicit in the act itself, though this runs counter to traditional wisdom and advice.

NOBODY asks dragon parents for advice; we’re too scary. Our grief is primal and unwieldy and embarrassing. The certainties that most parents face are irrelevant to us, and frankly, kind of silly. Our narratives are grisly, the stakes impossibly high. Conversations about which seizure medication is most effective or how to feed children who have trouble swallowing are tantamount to breathing fire at a dinner party or on the playground. Like Dr. Spock suddenly possessed by Al Gore, we offer inconvenient truths and foretell disaster.

And there’s this: parents who, particularly in this country, are expected to be superhuman, to raise children who outpace all their peers, don’t want to see what we see. The long truth about their children, about themselves: that none of it is forever.

I would walk through a tunnel of fire if it would save my son. I would take my chances on a stripped battlefield with a sling and a rock à la David and Goliath if it would make a difference. But it won’t. I can roar all I want about the unfairness of this ridiculous disease, but the facts remain. What I can do is protect my son from as much pain as possible, and then finally do the hardest thing of all, a thing most parents will thankfully never have to do: I will love him to the end of his life, and then I will let him go.

But today Ronan is alive and his breath smells like sweet rice. I can see my reflection in his greenish-gold eyes. I am a reflection of him and not the other way around, and this is, I believe, as it should be. This is a love story, and like all great love stories, it is a story of loss. Parenting, I’ve come to understand, is about loving my child today. Now. In fact, for any parent, anywhere, that’s all there is.

all.my.friends.(counting crows)

2011-09-28T00:24:00.001+08:00

~ Awesome and on repeat
Thought I might get a rocket ride
When I was a child but it was a lie
That I told myself when I needed something good
At seventeen, had a better dream.
Now I'm thirty-three and it isn't me
But I'd think of something better if I could
All my friends and lovers leave me behind
I'm still looking for a girl
One way or another
I'm just hoping to find a way
To put my feet out in the world
Caught some grief from a falling leaf
As she tumbled down to the dirty ground
Said I should have put her back there if I could
But everyone needs a better day
And I'm trying to find me a better way
To get from the things I do to the things I should
All my friends and lovers leave me alone
To try to have a little fun
One way or another I just wish I had known
To go out walking in the sun
And find out if you were the one
Does it make you wanna come a little closer now?
And did you wanna dance with me?
Did you wanna hum a little harder now?
Can you see her waiting there?
Can you see her? Because I'm almost there
Can you see her waiting there for someone like me?
All you want is a beauty queen
Not a superstar but everybody's dream machine
All you want is a place to lay your head
You go to sleep dreaming how you would
Be a different kind if you thought you could
But you come awake the way you are instead
All my friends and lovers shine like the sun
I just turn and walk away
One way or another
I'm not coming undone
I'm just waiting for the day

asking a guy out

2011-09-16T21:56:00.005+08:00

Currently am reading a book - wilful blindness - and I know subconsciously the reason why I even picked that book, was that I could see me in it.

I know that if I continued to stay in my comfort zone, I probably will be the same 21-years old self five years down the road. 31 years old but still nothing would have changed, my view still narrow, stuck in my ideals and basically status quo.

Its a scary realization, "Shyt, the days/months/years passed just like that!"

I used to think that its not difficult to like somebody. But I realise (rather unfortunately ) I fall into this pig-headed category of girls - those that choose to nitpick every other guys except the ones she likes.

Time heals all wound, and eventually - people move on. He did, I did eventually...

So recently i caught up with this guy whom i knew during the on-then off-and-on-again period when I was going out with ZJ (which dragged for three years or so). And because of this "too good to be true" guy, I never really went out with any other guys on dates. None of them lasted for more than a few dates or sustained my interest in getting to know them better. I was blinded by the possibilities I thought we have.

But when he moved on, I began to connect the dots. The holiday trips, the last minute cancellation, times when he bought out "alarm worthy" information which I never fail to choose to brush aside and forget. Instead concentrating on only the good, and what feels good. Even if its not right.

So this guy feels right to me now, but its not mutual. When we hang out, its comfortable in a old friend kind of way. But with sparks (HAHA), which is a plus in my book. If I am an independent third party looking in, I would have write us off totally in the "he just not that into you" sense. But I can be an ostrich hiding its head in the sand for matters of the heart, I would rather not think and be aware of my surroundings. I even avoid typing truth here. It was really the best date for some time, and usually if I am feeling this way, the guy tends to be swept off his feet too! :P I am giving the date's magic to wane off in a month time and its time to move on after that.

There is much to look forward to for the remaining of the year, cannot wait to create and capture more memories with the girls and family.
1) Batam
2) Hong Kong & Chengdu
3) Year end family trip

Not so nice thoughts

2011-09-14T16:59:00.003+08:00

sometimes when there is too much on my plate, and when the smallest "too-good-for-that" request come in, I secretly wished for the day where they have to sweat the small stuffs. when i will be on my long annual leaves and they/he will suffer somewhat. . . bleh

What's next

2011-08-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

I am heading past 6 months in my current company and am seriously looking at passing the 1 year mark at least. There have been more than one instances where I got "Still at the company?" from friends and I know that shows how hard it is to imagine me staying put!! Guilty as charged and I find myself looking at job positions again. No, I am not looking for a job but more of researching on my "marketability" for future references. I have been writing on the container sector weekly though my reports ranges from dry bulk to ship management companies - so rationally and logically my next move (if ever) will be to the bleeding box sector. Optimistically, what goes down must come up, then I would be ready for the next boom. :P

On another 1-year target: I shall not cut my hair till its long enough. :)

Best things I never had :)

2011-08-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Contradicting folks = woman

2011-08-01T00:04:00.003+08:00

As I laid on bed post-first date a week back, I remembered trying to rationalise how great moments are really far and in between among dates and I should never expect it on the first. Recalling those "心痒痒“aka "wanna be together" moments, they were indeed not guaranteed on every date. . .

I got a glimpse of this moment at the last WP's rally, maybe its the spontaneous act or the atmosphere at the field, my heart was pumped. But on a follow up meet up, a month plus later, it was good but not great. And seriously no effort = not interested by any measure for any case. So we moved on.

Fast forward to after surgery, I thought things were looking up and I could maybe leave my shell finally. This is important because it meant that i had really wanted/hoped that this time but its not. I am not looking for love, its not something i can go after. Somebody whom i wanna do things together with sound simple enough, right?

Desire to live a little more

2011-07-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

There have been many moments in the past three weeks, that have me thanking my lucky stars. Some of them in the form of family and close friends. I am somebody that hesitate to ask for favors nor comfortable to be on the receiving ends. But found myself quite the helpless damsel a few times as I discover the tumor at my back, seek opinions (both online and offline) on the matter, go through numerous tests and finally had the operation. Strangely, I felt as normal as can be on the day of the surgery. Maybe because I knew it is something that has to be done and not life threatening. I was almost looking forward to have the lump remove at my back, so that we can move on from there. As always the advocator of closure and moving on~

Everyone at home chipped in to make me feel better and my parents ensured I got the best medical treatment I need. Even yen flew back from china to be here with me. Then I was overwhelmed by what had to be done and did not stop to think much, but looking back I am truly blessed to have my family, friends and relatives showering me with concern and treats cheering me on.

It was an unexpected break from work, and did shift plans and slow momentum in the process. But it opened my heart a little, opened my eyes to people whom care about me and hopefully I learnt to live a little more.

:)

Pictures

2011-05-04T13:50:00.003+08:00

Shentonista- Me.

As we grow older

2011-04-23T23:47:00.003+08:00

哪天你想要闪电结婚
请先帮我找一个好男人
别一个人去幸福不理人
哪天你不小心就变成女强人
别忘了是我劝你要认真
无论再忙都要陪我聊聊心声
我
永远记得今晚
我们回忆往事梦想未来感动聊不完
明天心也要作伴也要勇敢
不管是否天涯两端
只要是情意够长缘就不短
常常联络不准懒散
明天心也要作伴也要自然
就像现在真诚简单
有事你要人商量我最喜欢
欢迎找我麻烦
哪天你已变成变成女强人
我会记得你劝我要认真
无论再忙都要陪我聊聊心声
我
永远记得今晚
我们回忆往事梦想未来感动聊不完
明天心也要作伴也要勇敢
不管是否天涯两端
只要是情意够长缘就不短
常常联络不准懒散
明天心也要作伴也要自然
就像现在真诚简单
有事你要人商量我最喜欢
欢迎找我麻烦
明天心也要作伴也要勇敢
不管是否天涯两端
只要是情意够长缘就不短
常常联络不准懒散
明天心也要作伴也要自然
就像现在真诚简单
有事你要人商量我最喜欢
欢迎找我麻烦
有事你要人商量我最喜欢
欢迎找我麻烦

看著你搭TAXI孤單的離去
全世界只剩我在淋雨
想著你可能去誰或誰懷裡
胡鬧猜搞的我無法呼吸
明明是

好天氣卻感覺下雨的情緒
我和你為何都我對不起你
轉個灣到街上一個人溜冰
要自己像只驕傲的鴨子
不要愛的鴨子

啊哈　去吧　沒什麼了不起
什麼都依你　卻看輕我自己
雖然我愛你　不許你再孩子氣
寂寞的鴨子　也可以不要你

有時愛會讓人變的笨笨地
習慣心只去你的心裡
沒有你我的心就像遙控器
在每個頻道理瘋狂找你
瘋狂想你　瘋狂看你

Work experience

2011-04-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

每做一事，最好只追求一个最在乎的目标，其余都可让步，这样达成目标的机会才高。

比方：
做这事，最在乎是学经验，那就别计较钱；
做那事，最要紧是钱，那就别计较面子。
以此类推。
若做一事，又想学经验，又要赚得多，又要有面子... ...如此美事，有得等啊。。。

-CKY blog

Alive and Kicking

2011-03-29T21:37:00.007+08:00

I cut my hair and love it so much!

Question:How to get Oreo to "listen" to you?

Ans: Treats :)

Yu & Ze has to listen to their chauffeur because... ...

Sushi Tei lunch when the parents are in Chengdu visiting Yen!!!

Something to think about

2011-03-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

Are you doing a good job? (SETH GORDIN BLOG)

One way to approach your work: "I come in on time, even a little early. I do what the boss asks, a bit faster than she expects. I stay on time and on budget, and I'm hardworking and loyal."

The other way: "What aren't they asking me to do that I can do, learn from, make an impact, and possibly fail (yet survive)? What's not on my agenda that I can fight to put there? Who can I frighten, what can I learn, how can I go faster, what sort of legacy am I creating?"

You might very well be doing a good job. But that doesn't mean you're a linchpin, the one we'll miss. For that, you have to stop thinking about the job and start thinking about your platform, your point of view and your mission.

It's entirely possible you work somewhere that gives you no option but to merely do a job. If that's actually true, I wonder why someone with your potential would stay...

In the post-industrial revolution, the very nature of a job is outmoded. Doing a good job is no guarantee of security, advancement or delight.
-------------------

His blog never fail to inspire me/set me thinking on a daily basis. One of the few things that have been on my mind is how to go beyond just a good job. The new job has been wonderful to say the least. New responsibilities given has widen my job scope a little but I am rolling in words every week...happily.

强

2011-02-15T00:45:00.006+08:00

The biggest weakness I (think) have is that I am too hard to myself. I can be quite the stubborn cow here. And somehow this can manifest my desire to control my loved ones- my family. For their own good of course. :) It's not only black and white in my world. I had step over the line before, more than once. We all do tends to take the side of our dad/mom/sister/brother/friends/people we care about when the situations call, blindly and faithfully I am sure some times.

These days I played the roles of daughter/eldest sister/friend/employee everyday. One day, maybe some one better half. :) The same status, the same circle of friends. Nothing changed. But I have decided to be better in words/thoughts/actions so that I can be my own better half here. At 20, it's time to be a grow up! HAHA.

This entry should not make much sense to anyone. No one could make sense of what I am doing with my weekends with no programs outside of family. It's starting to feel like "GET A LIFE" SOS from them! Really quite funny i say, but they are QUITE right. So....

The cycle starts again.

快乐是有人分享是有人分享

2011-02-05T02:41:00.002+08:00

喝酒的伴一起看电影的伴
早午晚餐的那个伴
朋友不能留得太晚
明天要上班
唱K的伴一起去旅行的伴
听懂我的笑话的伴
我的生活只差那个人就美满
快乐剩一人分享快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
节日却提醒我孤单
没有想法有想法又能怎样
只能写部落格整晚
几个留言安慰不了心里的遗憾
没有负担原来也是种负担
自由多得让人心慌
你羡慕我那要不要跟我交换
快乐剩一人分享快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子填满
别来提醒我多孤单
快乐剩一人分享快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
没人知道我多孤单

White lie

2011-02-01T02:22:00.003+08:00

Tonight, there are many thoughts/realizations that are keeping me up. Cold facts that I am subconsciously aware of but never think much of. I hope that none of my friends and loved ones' hearts ever be broken. That I be able to tell the genuine and sincere, even when my eyes and ears are blindfold.

Hello to my 4 followers of this blog! One is Val, I think... For the others, I am pretty surprised because based on the scooping around I did, I am not sure where's the connection is.

White lie: lie made with good intention.

Year End Memories

2011-01-19T22:28:00.007+08:00

The annual year end trip with the family was a much needed break from the resume sending and rough patch in SG. Hokkaido was fabulous and despite the chilly weather and snow, family provided the warmth we need.. ;)

We usually skipped the photo taking with PLynn and I am glad that we took time out of our non-stop updating for some trio photos!

CRAB WAS DELICIOUS. A BBQ feast with non stop chatters and feasting - the group getting smaller due to two girls stationed overseas. :) However 2011, will see us girls continuing making the effort to meet up and be silly. Watched my first movie of the year (and since a long time at the cinema) with the girls, enjoy the movie but love the company more....

The girls took a lot of pictures, I know they will regret in time. Haha, I refuse to participate in the "blue eyeshadow specs" picture taking!

2011 resolution

2011-01-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

Now that the dust has settled and the cartwheels done, I wondered if I should be displaying optimism or be cynical of the future. In many ways, the events that played out has taught me a few lessons yet I cannot help thanking my lucky stars. 强求没有幸福。I knew that if I have to plead and argue for something, no matter how much I really would had wanted that, I will not be happy in the end. So I do tend to give up at that cross road junction which I have no regrets with till date. I learnt that there is more than one way to say No and that working under a bias superior can work(hurt) both ways. It's great that life has played out to be alright for me after all. But i cannot help but wish I had not waste so much time. The agony of waiting, the inadequateness with each white lies told and the emptiness that envelops - well I did survived. Even if this is a little melodramatic, I will still like to share this:
人总是在脆弱时发现自己无比坚强「林志玲」

2011 Resolution - Stop Looking

2010-12-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

Seth Blog

Just looking

The problem with browsers is that they rarely buy anything.

The prospect who walks up to the salesperson and says, "I'm looking for a pinstripe suit in size 38" is a lot more likely to walk out with a suit than the one who mutters, "No thanks, just looking."

Which is relevant to your quest for a new product or business or job or mate or project worth working on...

If you're still looking around, making sure you understand all your options, getting your bearings or making sure you're well informed, you're most probably browsing.

You missed the first, second and third waves of the internet. You missed a hundred great jobs and forty great husbands. You missed the deadline for that course and the window for this program.

Quit looking and go buy something already.

Blind(ing) Faith

2010-12-01T23:15:00.003+08:00

I started this entry, with the intention to indulge in some self pity. Somehow the recent happenings, gave me a false righteous mentality, that I am entitle to whine and go down the road of hopelessness and despair.

I was after all told that I am not good enough.

However, I am holding on to my silly optimism. I still believe in love. Most importantly, I believe in me.

Nowhere

2010-11-28T20:46:00.004+08:00

My probation ended abruptly on Friday, with me leaving the office heart-broken and defeated. At age 25, I encountered my first humiliation at work, for what I could not deliver soon enough. Its been one experience that brought me down to earth, and forced me to face my failure straight in the face. After 16 years of education and countless newspapers or books, there is not much to show for my grasp of the English language. I always thought that I write better than I speak, and sought comfort in that naive belief. When you are quarter of a century and have this belief proven otherwise by your boss, I knew I was fighting a losing battle and pleading further was just delaying the inevitable. At the moment, I just wasn't the right fit.

Although I would not agree with the contradicting manner the boss had gone about this exercise, nor understand what is the underlying core reason for dismissal, I will not let this discount the effort and good work I had done for the past 26 days. Everyone including the boss himself could see my diligence and competency in research, but they did not matter in the end.

For the year 2010, I learn things the hard way. In love and career, I came to realize I was not good enough, after all.

For year 2011, may the downs of the past year let let me appreciate the ups more ...

chen moi

2010-11-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

Its six minutes pass midnight, a few minutes past Sunday and a long week ahead... I am feeling the blues now plus my heart seem to ache rather than beat. Probably due to my late dinner, in the form of spicy tom yum glass noodles. And the brain cells killing reading and discussion late in the afternoon.

Times like this...

2010-11-20T23:54:00.006+08:00

Ah ma's actual (birth)day celebration, saw all us gather at my uncle place and hang out. Watch TV, Play Mahjong, Chit Chats, Lappies and Birthday cake... The cousins bought 'popcorn' and somehow I find myself pledging loyalty to oreo by not playing with popcorn much.. Heee

Popcorn cutie and Yu cutie - whom is going to Super J concert thanks to cash from papa and fastest finger help from me..

With ah ma, missing yen

Yen dyed her hair and got free temp curls. Tempted, i went to cut/trim my hair too. Note to self: The salon DO NOT charge for fringe cut, to return by Jan 2011. ;P

*****I can't ask for more...

Garlic Poisoning and Airport Goodbyes

2010-11-13T17:12:00.012+08:00

S95: It was a good meal @ MFG! Going back next Thurs again, poisoning or not..

S95

S95

S95: four out of the five dishes we had

S95: GG Size is dwindling with Globalization

S95

LX: Customized calender

LX: Weiling's Farewell to HK

LX: Entourage

All the best, Weiling. Come back with a cute cantonese accent and many many good experience. So proud of the exposure that you will definitely gain in HK.

Five Days

2010-11-09T22:12:00.002+08:00

Having work in many different jobs before from banking and recruitment sales to advertising account coordinator even personal assistant, but I have never really felt like this.

Back then, what makes me like a job could be the slow pace environment or the nice colleagues. Enjoy the houses built and the artistic vibe.

But I have never felt like this before.

Overwhelmed yet liking it nevertheless.

生日快乐

2010-10-31T01:49:00.010+08:00

Had a family gathering at our place and it was good seeing everybody. A even better news is that my cousin has confirmed the little nephew on the way :) Oreo is the hyper kid and my parents remarked more than once that in a few years home, we all been busy with our activities and leaving them at home ... Yu was out celebrating her friend's birthday on MY birthday and Ze was out for his new found church cell group/session ;) Well, I also asked them not to worry cos I forsee me being around the house for quite some time.. Yes, even so at 25 years OLD.

My little cousins came from their graduation ceremony at playschool and kindergarten. Oreo was super active chasing her around which only got her pretty scared and jumpy to any adults to keep her off the ground.. =) Hence the distance between the pet AND the kid.

Took off after awhile to meet the DMNs. We walked in the rain, slump ice cream at Macs and then a treat at Long BEach (ECP) before ending the night with cakes gifts and sprinkles.. .. It was a journey back to childhood which I really appreciated.

Klian presented me with her [Just Right] Photo Frame early at our meet up. And the moment I saw it, I was real real happy. Over the years, I guess we learn through genuine love and thoughts about the art of choosing presents. .. Some through mistakes even. But today when I got IT, I saw a friend who know me for what I am , the likes and dislikes... ... Black and White, The Size & Shape of the photo and frame.

And of course, the celebrations and presents from the DMNs were wonderful and very much appreciated. The birthday wishes that came in through SMS and FBook warm my heart and I am duper thankful to friends and family that makes the effort to make this normal Saturday a special One.

THANK YOU :)

I sat down one evening and printed some photos for the many photo frames I won previously and the Daiso board I bought with Yen.. The little black frame now pales in comparison from the one Klian gave me -.0

Yen in case you are jealous, that your picture isn't here. Our yacht polariod picture is prominently on the LAND OF DREAMS with the GG pictures etc as well...I love how my boards are all a mess with tokens, random key chains and cards.. Memories that I will carry along haphazardly through life ;)

这二十五岁的生日不一定是最精彩的，
或最热闹的，
但是我无所谓。

不是很特别的我，
有很疼爱我的家人，
非常不一般的朋友（永不变的友情），
我满足了。
没有暧昧对象，
我的心还没回来，
所以近期内。。
还是会一个人。

但我不强求，
人生中有一，没二；
我明白。
将开始的以想不到新工作-
棒！
其他的-
我愿意等。

我二十五岁的生日愿望，
不是很大，
但也不简单。
我只希望-
活的自在。

What's Hot? WHEREHOUSE SALE ;)

2010-10-23T20:30:00.005+08:00

For Mit^ju and C&K wherehouse sales, it was queues, squeeze, shoes and grab then more queues to pay for the items. I HAD to get shoes because Oreoo love our worn shoes. Plus work is starting soon and I NEED more work shoes. Everyone had to queue to enter and bcos it was Mit^ju first wherehouse sale and they had the sale at 3rd floor of a considerably smaller venue, the wait was patience testing. And it doesn't help that I had to rush for a vet appointment for Oreo. Today I learn the hard way that the internet may be one best friend, but one still need to differentiate the facts and myths.

Like Chocolates and Raisins, Onions and Garlic is poisonous to dogs when taken though usually you need a substantial amount for life threatening consequences... However, I felt super guilty when I realize what I researched on the net was not only false but bad for Oreo at the Vet. Oreo was getting ticks on his body and I thought garlic will "repel" the ticks off him. -.- But now, I am glad that we have sorted out what to do and get Oreo back in shape. He needs to fatten up too! And tonight he has his beef dinner as a treat ;)

My Buys.. The pink flats(in box) and the pointed black heel ( above cream shoes) are from C&K. The rest are Mit^ju buys. The total damage at Mit^ju would even pull my BKK shopping trip to shame. 6 shoes for $40. GRINZ

Yu was more controlled but she bought a size 41 sandals (black) even though she is a size 38. So she wasn't that rational after all. Well, she is still gonna wear the sandals and the fit wasn't that bad when wore on. I really like her nautical wedges and think she loves them too. Her best buy for this shopping trip probably.. (white sandals - C&k)

AND today I finally parallel park between two cars on my own. Time taken was slightly longer than normal parking but I am glad it wasn't that long. It was jerky as complained by ze, but thats cos I wasn't confident and really do not want to bang into either cars. But being the klutz, I offered my parking coupon to another car when I was back, only to be told (laugh kindly) that after 5pm there is no need for coupon!

T.T Duhz

Its here!!!

2010-10-20T21:07:00.004+08:00

Overall its just like as shown on Gmarket site. except that the blazer is much lighter than I had expected. Not really sure if this is a pro or con, will probably know when i start wearing them for work.

Love the grey jacket the most out of the loot, though it came in the wrong size (M). ..

You & Your Salary

2010-10-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

Stuffnoonetoldme

Something we want so much and its a common measure of our worthiness and capability etc, yet also know it do not determine who we are or what we can achieved . . .

If you are happy, get together...

2010-10-18T14:54:00.003+08:00

Singlehood is desirable anywhere (reel) except in real life. Have caught a few episodes of SATC* over the weekend and in the show - even when Carri*e has to compete with 20 something years old for MBig's attention, you know that the heroine we all be rooting for will be OK. She has her good friends and is doing what she like best - writes. Guy or no guy. Be it 30 years or going 40, they are good cos we know somehow in the end, the male and female leads will get together.

I do not deny that I live in a bubble, where by I think that even without putting any effort, somehow my happy ending will come. Well friends will know, I tried. Avenues that I have attempted to expand my social life and maybe meet somebody, that I do not think I will go through again. But I still believed, when family teased about the lack of friends (from UNI) , when my siblings ask, and relatives join in the questioning,drilling and recommendations for my good, when I look around me at the couples , that I will be OK.

For if one get together for a happy reason, its good for the heart. But if one get together for a reason like loneliness, I would think solitaire is more desirable...

弦子天真

2010-10-17T22:25:00.001+08:00

但承诺已经冷却了
我的天真在泪水里沉沦
孤独它让我无法负荷
不用假装还爱着
捨不得还是放开了
我的天真早就摔成遍地的忐忑
失去了所有顔色
这次我真的痛了
真的彻底醒了
我试着洒脱
换来的只是伤痕
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真
还能够说些什么
当快乐已经掏空了
我的天真早就碎成遍地的忐忑
努力平凑着却再也无法完整
这次我真的痛了
真的彻底醒了
我试着洒脱
换来的只是伤痕
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真
我哭的累了
没有梦是好的
别再说爱我
你给的全是悔恨
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真

My type of song

Counting down

2010-10-14T16:27:00.002+08:00

I am shopping again.. This time at Gmaaarket since I am on a look out for Blazers for work and thought they will provide a good alternative to the usual brands... Can't wait to for the two items to arrive and if its even half as good as shown, I foresee more online shopping at G Market.

Here's my buys:

Grey

Black

Self hypo

2010-10-13T23:54:00.005+08:00

海阔天空... ... There was this friend whom was really into drums and he will make me listen to BD's original Cantonese version. I think I only managed a "nice tune.." then but as I listen it here and with the lyrics screening - It does inspire and gets me light-hearted! Dreams are worth many disappointments and time, hence no matter how silly, I want to keep searching and believing in me (& my bubbles of cos). This year come end Oct, I will be living for a quarter of a century, I can't wait ... It will be good good, very good, so so so good from now on! I know! hahaha

I WANT THE JOB

2010-10-08T10:53:00.000+08:00

6oct Wed: Its five days since my second and last interview and this post is going straight to draft because I just feel like ranting. Its ironic how I cannot stay in one job for long and how many jobs and industries I went into in the short span of two years. Somehow I think its mirror my dating life, I cannot seem to be able to settle down with anyone.

I have since began to go into psychological breakdown and analysis mode because of this long period of no news. At least I knew I had been honest and have tried my best (I even wrote a branding article as an after thought for the interviewers), so at this moment I am still not THAT panicky. Its just that I go about my days in a daze and I have NEVER refresh my email box this often before. Expectation about securing the job at the moment is 50-50.

Here is my analysis of not getting the job:
1) Wasn't as articulated and confident in my 2nd interview with the CEO. The panel was casual but he was intimidating.
2) High remuneration expectation
3) Lousy grades in Uni
4) Not smart enough with no prior research experience AND not with business degree [Honestly it prob will not be a problem if No.3 doesn't exist]
5) He also seem to agree that gan chiong is my biggest weakness

Here is my psychological self-console that I prob may get the job:
1) Its been 3 working days of deliberation so its not a straight forward "NO" case
2) They probably need more time to provide my employment contract (ultimate optimism)
3) My enthusiasm for the job with my prompt email follow up (write up , picture etc) and my self-initiated branding article
4) Was a recommended candidate by a principal consultant?
5) I presented an honest yet realistic front at the same second interview and he appreciates it?

I am really scared now that I will not get the job. The intention to leave is made known to quite a few relevant person and I don't know how to go from here. And mainly because research and analysis has been what I wanted to go into and the job scope seems like a good balance

8th Oct Fri* i got it*

Oh lala, those were the days

2010-10-06T17:39:00.008+08:00

There were some distant memory prints hidden in my email account which I would have long forgotten if not due to boredom at work today. I am glad I took on this journey for whatsoever reason because it did create some pretty good memories thinking back now.

This was my first trip with "friends" in university. I only knew one person from the trip and I wasn't in the same dive group as him. Then lots of stuffs happen on trip at tioman and after that..Make some friends there but none that are still in contact with.

I so recognize my grinz in this picture, mask or no mask. Hee

The volunteers, the events stretched for 3 days. But I remember I was there for only two...

Emi*leo was this guy I knew from the camp who went on to become DIP mate and also course mate. . .

I think i look super young here. Haha

During banking days where formal wear is the norm.

B M W - P7 Ride

2010-10-02T22:28:00.045+08:00

This entry is reallllllyy about canon s95 vs LX3! Yen bought hers on that very day and went trigger happy. The plus points definitely is the vibrant colour and the auto-bright light even in the evening with no flash!

The fish eye effect. This is pre hair colour and hair cut with Joann on Sunday. Now i have new hair colour and cut!

The effect that I like from Canon cameras! A splash of colours amid B&W

Twin Effect

The normal shot

The poster colour shot

Yen & Kloon

All prepare for the yacht ride

Nautical - White / Blue & White Strips

Food was all prepared on board by a young chef?! And served by a young waitress. They were all probably from the event company that does yacht chartering.

Pre- Wolf

OS: Tsk Tsk, midst of wolfingdown the food

Happy to wolf

Nautical theme again

Non-nautical theme

THE CREW

From this picture onwards, its all LX3 images while those on the above are all CS95.

@Keppel

The Hat Team

Girls in the family(ze really not a fan of picture taking)

Cheers Team 1

Cheers Team 2

We could not stop taking pictures at the start but grew wobbly when we spend more time at sea

1 of 6 who swam to the shore. Thumbs up

Blue blue sky

With Minnie

With Minnie too

We even manage to watch the fireworks along Sentosa when night falls. Songs of the sea ;)

"we had F.u.n!"

Kai qing underwent lots of costumes change ;) Matching strips team!

FOOD WAS DELICIOUS, my first helping

One of the many Polaroids we could take!!

As the night ends, we said our goodbyes with a light heart but very wobbly legs.

*fingers crossed*

almost.. perfect

2010-09-30T23:01:00.001+08:00

Ate*lier Ro~yale

2010-09-28T21:13:00.004+08:00

Because how much I enjoy blog surfing everywhere and anywhere. I found this on someone blog then on Face*book as well. Its so funny because I never really thought we will have this here in Singapore.

Not when I was in Japan and witness the "butlers" on the busy shopping streets. Not when I was watching this Japanese movie on cable called "snow white and the 7 dwarfs?".

I recognize some of the guys from the various blogs i am reading. Seems like the role allows them to do what they like best... ;)

HEH

A lazy sunday.. ..

2010-09-26T23:23:00.004+08:00

Pictures to do the talking this time ;)

Pre- Mid Autumn Celebration 1

2010-09-21T23:11:00.007+08:00

Won many little pressies at the ex-office annual MA games, what makes me really happy was ...

Not this. But I think this set of gifts was very interesting.. This China set were all bought at the Shanghai ExPO. Note the Chinese wordings!

THIS is what i like. RE-usable Star$ bottle that comes with its own straw.

Okay totally not relevant. But after watching so many korean dramas, I still like this Japanese artiste..

SWOOONZZZZZZ :)

Neon Lights & Crazy Shopping

2010-09-18T00:01:00.003+08:00

Went to Tim Grp new chain at StudM hotel and its was a good meet up with KLian. Drinks were free flow and there will snacks for everyone and anyone there. Because its the night of their official launch, we can see a good mix of patrons at zero costs to our pockets. To me the real deal closer is the live music and zen cozy interiors. . .

Our buys for 3.5 hours at town. Two girls arm with S$1000 task to buy 254 gifts from the smallest group of 32 little presents to the top prize which is only ONE. =-) A tiring tasks but rewarding nevertheless as we pick up rewards in kind along the way as we search,shop, buy!!! Very shiok shopping as yen summarized it best - Shopping without without the care of prize. SO looking forward to the games at the ex company where we will all have chance to win the 254 prizes!!!! ;) I am glad that I still do keep in contact with the people at the ex Co and feeling lucky that I am still included =D Know that this probably won't last too long with the turn over rate etc, but I shall just enjoy the ride as per life..

=D

Hunger

2010-09-13T22:53:00.001+08:00

I can't admit defeat.

I DON'T want to .. ..

I want as I want

2010-09-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

I am seriously contemplating if I should leave. I fear that I will not reap what I sow by quitting. But yet equally heavy for the heart, I worry that this isn't for me.

I had my assurances to carry on & not give up, but it sure is discouraging at the moment.

I think I need to figure out and not waiver asap.

Happily Ever After

2010-09-13T00:18:00.005+08:00

The girls that I am probably closest with at my previous work place.

Passing times @ the Wedding. My photos somehow either come out too dark or too bright by different standards. . .

Just so more of my dress can be seen haha

The kids did a video for ZZJJ and here's a snapshot for you, Yen. Know how much you miss everybody here, basically they are still the same!!!!

One Bite at a Time

2010-09-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

"i'm taking this to be a lesson is patience, commitment, and perspective. rome wasn't built in a day. neither was your business, your reputation, your relationship with that prized customer, your ideal lifestyle, or your personal fulfilment.

these things take time. and while the task may seem quite daunting and perhaps unattainable at first; when broken down task-by-task, milestone-by-milestone ... it's actually quite digestible.

so let's get into the habit of looking at each massive, seemingly unrealistic, mammothly-gigantic challenge ... stare it straight in the face, and confidently ask, "where shall i start?""

-From Today is the Best Day of my Life

Was feeling slightly discouraged today as my cousin shares with me his manpower sales recently. Its disheartening to see how easy it is for others as you struggle with your numbers. However, I think I have come round. I need more time. Maybe 5 figures will never be possible especially on a long term basis. . . But surviving in life is probably more than a number game. I got to learn to be contented yet hungry enough.

HAHA moments

2010-09-07T17:43:00.004+08:00

Receive a random MSN message from someone back in TPJC, whom i have no idea who after I facebooked! I thought it was a friend from NTU whom happen to have the same name, now thinking back I wonder if I had actually talked to this fellow back in my active MSN days. Way before this perpetually "Busy" Status and even way before "Appear Offline" days, thinking it was THAT friend?

This is big joke!

Coming to work as if its the first day every day.. .

2010-09-07T14:40:00.002+08:00

Professionals, amateurs and the great unwashed

If you want something done, perhaps you would ask a professional to do it. Someone who costs a lot but is worth more than they charge. Someone who shows up even when she doesn't feel like it. Someone who stands behind her work, gets better over time and is quite serious indeed about the transaction.

Or perhaps you could hire a passionate amateur. That's a forum leader doing it for love, not money. An obsessive in love with the craft. A talented person willing to trade income for the chance to do what he loves, with freedom.

Please, though, don't hire someone who just thinks it's a job. This category represents the majority of your options, and this category is what gives work a bad name.

SETH'S BLOG Again.

I love you from the moon and back...

2010-09-07T00:20:00.012+08:00

This B&W film picture taken by Miss Kai has to be posted up! I really like it cos B&W steals my heart somehow. Black is the presence of all colours then White the absence of them. I remember repeating & relating this to Yen (or Yu?) for a period of time, I just like how it rhymes then I admit. I have this "pose" a lot of time when I am out & there is a menu. Sometimes even more awkward with the silence between choices. Or just uncomfortable since Menu Browsing usually happens at the start of my dates. =P

I make mooncakes tonight (Mon). Shanghai Mooncake with Melon Seed & Walnut and Lemon Snowskin Mooncake with Pomelo & Mango Filling! Register for their hands-on class, impromptu & spontaneous just so it will be a different Monday and that its one more to add to my "Done, Maybe Never Again list" list. As much as routine comforts me, I think I love chosen spontaneous much better. I was a terrible baker. In my mind, I am like Yen Can Bake. But in reality, I am far from even the average. Real bad but I survived with nice class mates and a helpful teacher. He whom basically mix, knelt and mold the dough alot of the mooncake for me so that I can bring decent end products home. =-) Back breaking it is and fingers are in need of a good massage and rest now. (Psst, I did knelt the dough and all but at each stage they somehow wasn't good enough and need a little help) I am a terrible photographer. Whenever I look at those food blogs, the foods looks so good! And I figures how hard can it be to take good shots of still objects. Its not easy, hence I hope I had explain the below images by me. Haha. *Will update on the taste and general feedback later on. *

-Disclaimer: Shanghai Mooncake (above) was my least assisted works. My downfall was snowskin! (below) You should see why now, one is a round ball of dough another much more delicate. Interesting Info -> There is a chocolate truffles shell with mango jelly in each snowskin as well!

I was a little too excited with the colouring hence instead of the elegant faint yellow, I got the vibrant yellow that looks a bit too much like Durian Snowskin. =(

I smile through the whole video

2010-09-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

J-A-D-E-D

2010-09-02T17:20:00.003+08:00

I have a confession:

I think I am stuck
in a job I don't quite see the light.
Stagnant and quite not satisfied.
Working hours, standard.
Colleagues, relax and nice.
Work environment, cozy and stress free.
Its been only 5 months and the Japan guilt trip.

Somehow what I thought I am in for,
differs now.
Air flight to oversea recruitment
likely be replaced with web cam locally.
Sales sources dry and depressing at the moment.
Basically my dreams are crushed.
My hope are down.

I know I will not quit without a year experience at least but I'm just jaded.

:P

Just a ponder(quater)

2010-09-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

If you can remove something (non-living) from the Earth, What will it be?

As the DJ ponders on air - an emotion, characteristic, object -- I came up with a crazy idea. How about you?

Touched by angels

2010-08-29T00:28:00.005+08:00

A very very corny blog title, but somehow i felt this way two days in a row. Maybe my earlier blog post about the heartwarming act might lead one to think its a romantic gesture by someone. But its not.

I did meet up with Kris. Yes, that person again. It was another sms from him and I agreed quite readily. The whole loads of emotions before, during and after our meet up are as much predictable as its entertaining. Feelings that I thought that he will be incapable to stir now he still do, not surprisingly maybe. BUT I had my closure this time. Clear what I deserve yet understand I have to become the woman whom which my someone will fall head over heels for, put as a priority against and more importantly treasured. :) Well being me, I did what I had to do at Wild Rocket. I overate for lunch. Ignoring the lunch set menu, I ordered Ribeye Steak Middle Raw & Lava Chocolate Cake with Vanilla Ice cream. ;) I know at least one person who is so proud of my gastronomical effort.

Well back to my angels. On Friday morning, my colleague came back from my client office with a envelope for me. My first client has asked him to bring back a signed book for me. She has published two books and this is one of them . As the title suggests it is a uplifting self-help books with her poems and paintings drawing inside. On the inner first page, she handwritten and signed "Dear Amelia, Aim High & Fly High." I was already very touched at this stage. My colleagues whom were around said even my uncle has not met a client who extend such an act of friendship. Thereafter, I received an encouraging short email from her. Here, I wondered what I had did right all these while.

Then an ambitious innocent remark to KAETF got me a loewe bag that cames with the Japanese Magazine. Doubt she reads this blog now but thank you. For believing that I can hit my 20 targets and surprising me again! Had been sitting on my barrels for too long since my last closure and as the year end draws near, I really want less regrets and more celebrations this time. No more over optimistic hence procrastinating now. Thank you!

(almost) never ending pictures

2010-08-27T12:14:00.005+08:00

Narcissistic me

Remember feeling not so good about my smile during the trips. Think I smile too wide but looking at the pictures, I look so happy! So don't care, just grin.

Can you recognize the cutie on the vending machines? So handsome!

More pictures of Nippon

2010-08-27T10:59:00.005+08:00

Fun Shots - @ Disneyland

The Japanese cuties!

Japan - Country of the rising sun

Note: From fair to tan...

Got more pictures from my colleagues and here to share with you more. But being Ning, I only just realize my pictures can be bigger size and not mini like the previous entry. Oh wellz, better late than never.

Something real heart warming just happen and I will prob share on next time. Its gives me the goose bumps on a rainy lazy afternoon.

Day 1 - Disneyland

2010-08-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

The highlight of Disneyland was definitely the parade! As the characters wave & dance around to the catchy VERY positive and cheerful music, its not hard to understand why they say there is a child in everyone of us. No matter how jaded or old, Disney somehow never fails to bring a smile to our faces.

Everything at Disneyland Japan was very well thought out especially the decorations. Its like a play land for all. See even the ice cream is cute! =) We did rides like Caspers (which I find very familiar, think I seat that before), watch 3D movie and "Its a small world". Nothing too exciting nor scary, hence maybe more enjoyable for us! Hee

Of cos in Japan, its the people watch that is a class of their own. Did not really pay attention to their many outrageous outfits though, maybe cos there are simply too many of them that its become quite the norm sights.

When we were there, its actually their summer vacation in Japan. Hence it was super duper hot! And quite a huge crowd with the locals and tourists all ready to be "Mickefied"

Day 2 - Tokyo, Hakone

2010-08-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

The highlight at the shrine was the "qian" i got at the temple. It was a good lot as you can tell by my happy wide grin.

The Ramen Museum was more of a lunch stop than a "real" museum nevertheless. They had many shops with the vending machine outside where you made your order choices. Then once you enter the shops, your ramen is served piping hot not before a glass of water is served to you though. :) The service in Japan definitely thumbs-up & thoughtful!

Mt Fuji - 5th stop

Food! Wasn't a fan of ramen when I am in Singapore, but loves those I had in Japan. Finishing even the soup base most of the times. BIG LOVE

Day 3

2010-08-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

This place was a hot spring for eggs. =) The water temperature at the mountain is about 80++ degrees and is used to boil the eggs. Because of the temperature and sulphur that can be found in the spring water, the egg's shell turn black. The interior of the egg is still white though, and very yummy. ;)

Almost everywhere we go, there will be hello kitty sightings. From those big statue to little souvenirs, they were happy reminder of Nippon!
Its been 3 days of early mornings and many pit stops along the way. My colleagues concluded that I am the most excited about food. And well, most alert when I shop! :P

Met cuties Japanese tourists who tried on the traditional costumes whom were very kind to let us take pictures with them. To me, Japan is modern as much as its traditional which makes the place so vibrant yet comfortable!

Day 4

2010-08-26T20:47:00.002+08:00

Day 4 was the day we could feel the youth, vibrant and outrageous of Japan for the first time since the start of our tour. This vibe is different from Disneyland - land of dreams. At Osaka Shinsaibaisi when it turn dark, even more interesting characters can be found on the streets. Stylish-malo guys in suits trying to get people into "Prince"Clubs. Some sexy girls can also be found walking/standing at the various sheets. The neon lights. The busy street stalls. The well dressed Jap crowd. Everything seems purposeful yet tastefully done, at least to me for the short 15 minutes walk down the street after our dinner to our bus.

Final Pictures of Japan

2010-08-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

We did not go to Universal Studio but because half of the tour group choose that package, we manage to take tourist shoots at the entrance. =-)

Today is the day we did the most shopping. The shopping bags kept accumulating throughout the day and Japan at summer is surprisingly good for shopping. Not dirt cheap like China or Bkk but still good shopping. =-)
Most of the restaurants have counter seats even if there the normal seating spaces in there. Can't help taking pictures at the counter, best way to submerse to the Japanese culture/

My loot which gave me a backache and left me real tired. Glad that I managed to get something for everyone in the family & can't wait for Yen to come back to see her pressies. =-)

From the Japan trip,
I want to remember how my boss/uncle gave each of us 10,000 Yen on flight for our shopping.
The wonderful people I meet and the services rendered.
The ramen eating experience.
The good buys and adrenaline.
......

Reminder: Don't Give Up

2010-08-19T14:55:00.001+08:00

SETH BLOG : COMPETITION

The number one reason people give me for giving up on something great is, "someone else is already doing that."

Or, parsed another way, "my idea is not brand new." Or even, "Oh no, now we'll have competition."

Two big pieces of news for you:

1. Competition validates you. It creates a category. It permits the sale to be this or that, not yes or no. And this or that is a much easier sale to make. It also makes decisions about pricing easier, because you have someone to compare against and lean on.

2. There are six billion people in the world. Even if your market is hand-made spoke shaves for left-handed woodworkers, there are more people in your market than you can ever hope to track down.

There are lots of good reasons to abandon a project. Having a little competition is not one of them. Even if it's Google you're up against.

Newsburst ithree

2010-08-08T23:56:00.010+08:00

These long weekend has been awesome. Not all memories has been documented with pictures but it has been a really great time spend catching up with friends. I am so happy i bought my tutee AwfChoco as a thank you treat. I loves chocolate. And Weiling make us Chocos with Peanuts fillings which got me super tempted to start on my truffles choco making attempt. Real soon I hope.. ...

Saturday was spend shopping and eating & eating free yogurt ice creams. Thanks to the vouchers ;)

Life is pretty good now that I am moving on... ...

weekends

2010-08-01T20:27:00.006+08:00

At XJ Bugis Shop Opening - Sunny Day (Sat)

Close up of the DMNs

May the business be a roaring success... ;)

Lunch Buffet with the family (Sunday)

Wore the same outfit two days in a row. Haha, cos i like!

Last weekend I spend it mostly with the family and at home. We did something different like having lunch then catching a movie on a lazy Sunday afternoon. With the kids watching Despicable Me & the parents watching the S' Apprentice movie. That same weekend I told myself that the next weekend I should not be at home. Time to head out & be young...

So this weekend was good. Time catching up with friends yet have time with the family as well. Had a real good time with the DMNs last night and it was nice having a sit down dinner with some of the other halfs for the first time. And i really like the two couple & its great that we can hang out like that.

The coming weekend is the National Day long weekend & I already can't wait to meet up with the people. =) But before that, I have to buck up my marketing come tomorrow! "Work hard & play hard" is my motto for the week.

Good luck to me.

And don't give up to the many rejections....

Guess where we are going

2010-07-30T12:56:00.003+08:00

JAPAN! Will be going on a company holiday to Japan from 19th Aug to 25th Aug. Pretty excited now that its all confirmed we will be able to join the tour. This will bring us to Yokohama- Hakone- Nagoya- Kyoto- Osaka within 7D5N. Because usually its mostly China or BKK, this Japan is a big deal and think everyone is duper excited about it. This time we are going Japan because it is also a farewell and reward trip for a staff who has been around for a long time.

:o :P :) :D

Never miss the first opportunity!

2010-07-28T12:20:00.003+08:00

A young man wished to marry the farmer’s beautiful daughter. He went to the farmer to ask his permission. The farmer looked him over and said, “Son, go stand out in that field. I’m going to release three bulls,one at a time. If you can catch the tail of any one of the three bulls, you can marry my daughter.”

The young man stood in the pasture awaiting the first bull. The barn door opened and out ran the biggest, meanest-looking bull he had ever seen. He decided that one of the next bulls had to be a better choice than this one, so he ran over to the side and let the bull pass through the pasture out the back gate. The barn door opened again.

Unbelievable. He had never seen anything so big and fierce in his life. It stood pawing the ground, grunting, slinging slobber as it eyed him Whatever the next bull was like, it had to be a better choice than this one. He ran to the fence and let the bull pass through the pasture, out the back gate.

The door opened a third time. A smile came across his face. This was the weakest, scrawniest little bull he had ever seen. This one was his bull. As the bull came running by, he positioned himself just right and jumped at just the exact moment. He grabbed… but the bull had no tail!

"Life is full of opportunities. Some will be easy to take advantage of, some will be difficult. But once we let them pass (often in hopes of something better), those opportunities may never again be available. So always grab the first opportunity."

每一天的我要比昨天辽阔...

2010-07-14T17:14:00.001+08:00

郭静 - 每一天都不同

作词:姚若龙作曲:陈小霞

最讨厌要下不下的雨
可惜未来总是扑朔迷离
如果摔得越痛才越会飞行
快把我丢向最高的天空里

不喜欢别人说我幸运
他们不懂我有多么努力
虽然冲动永远比坚持容易
宝贵的东西都需要很费心

碰到的事每一天都不同
有的给我眼泪有的给我笑容
终于会珍惜花开不怕花落
走过的曲折就全变成彩虹

不喜欢别人说我幸运
他们不懂我有多么努力
虽然冲动永远比坚持容易
宝贵的东西都需要很费心

遇见的人每一天都不同
偶尔失去什么偶尔学到什么
慢慢能翻越沙丘走出日落
每一天的我要比昨天辽阔

连我都不相信自己的时候
只有你一直相信我
此刻我什么也不想说
因为拥抱能表达得更多

碰到的事每一天都不同
有的给我眼泪有的给我笑容
终于会珍惜花开不怕花落
走过的曲折就全变成彩虹

遇见的人每一天都不同
偶尔失去什么偶尔学到什么
慢慢能翻越沙丘走出日落
每一天的我要比昨天辽阔

Lost & found

2010-07-13T16:28:00.002+08:00

I have been very scattered mind lately, will go as far as saying scattered soul... But somehow things come together eventually. After shopping at Watson 3 weeks ago, I only realized last week that I have not seen my buys for a long while. So I panic a whole day pre-GG meetup with NO IDEA where they are. Then realized the day after that on one random night I had packed it into an old make up purse. Now that I know where they were, I find them not so important after all. They are now dash aside at my current make up box. . .

Besides those, yen buys for me are dash aside under my dressing table too. The excitement of receiving do dies down awhile, and re-ignite when you pack them later. (In my case, weeks/days later) So what I am really trying to achieve is to lengthen the whole excitement. Or I am really just lazy.

Then when we went shopping yesterday and I finally managed to buy ONE top at the GSS which has almost all brands Z, M, T on sale but found nothing. I realize I lost the top when I reach home after the seafood dinner with the family. Taxi, Watson, Charles & Keith, Ah ma house or did I even took the bag from B's cashier ??? And when I finally remembered where I have misplaced it, its like 1am. And too late for actions but left to sleep with many regrets and if only. And the top in question is like less than forty dollars, but is already make me really affected. Sometimes I am amazed by what eats me up.

I remembered leaving the bag at the top shelf display in Watson. But it wasn't there when mummy & yen checked today. And MY MAMMY thought why not check at B, and there it was. Someone returned it back. I am not sure why though when I called last night before closing, and the staffs confirmed there wasn't any bag left behind. Unless M&Y bought it again to make me feel better but I think that is equally unlikely too.

But no matter, both ways I am lucky.

When a hair cut means more...

2010-07-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

Today's hair cut at K.R with yu was good. Nerve wreaking, well a little. Awkward, there were moments. Pampering, definitely. Service, Thumbs Up! Even though we used vouchers, we were felt very welcome. Though our area were the common areas, it adds to the fun as you can to see other patrons and the stylists at work. *Whistles* Haha! The hair stylists are all really good looking. There's the manly one. The Taiwan boy band good-looker. And basically everyone there. But that asides, I love the hair cleansing = read shampoo. The massage was good relief from work and really relaxing. Just what I need as much as a hair cut!

:) :) :) :) :) 5smiley

Welcome home (soon), Yen!

2010-07-07T21:01:00.011+08:00

Papa's new ride ;)

Silly us checking out (purely) the car...

Family Dim Sum @ Asia Grand! So Yummy Hee

Cousinz

Cousinz II

Beijing Duck

Dessert Fight

Cutie Yu in Korean get-up =P

Nerds Attack

TEMPORARY PESSIMISM

2010-06-30T18:10:00.002+08:00

Its a horrible day for me. Bad news hit me repeatedly with regards to the only two small deals I cut. The status now is ambiguous, and one of it definitely needs me to clean up the mess to the client tomorrow. These continuous bombardment of things not within my control has worsen my already blurred state of mind. I can only think of blurred to describe this feeling of confusion & of things to be done.

The lists is actually laughable because it actually includes expanding my social circle/be attached off. Plus getting a i-dianwa. And as i type the ironies are very apparent to today's poor me (pun very much intended), do i really need "somebody" or " a phone that will set me back almost $60/month. With I feel has only one saving grace of- Internet Access 24/7". A pessimistic me is hardly a shopaholic as you can see, and it does make me question the limitations and Whats for more. Plus my last entry is one filled with possibilities with almost blind faith that everything will go well. So naive.

But I think I make a good sales person because of that. That same blind faith that it is possible, maybe not now but eventually has given what I need now. The courage to start all over again tomorrow.

HEH.

SUDDEN OPTIMISM

2010-06-18T00:15:00.004+08:00

I am in a good mood today. Not those high ultra duper good nor the warm fuzzy feeling either. But a day where I don't mind spending money for myself and to the people around me. And when things happen in the most unexpected way and I am very thankful.

If its because of an unexpected email arranging an appointment that same afternoon and meet an arty farty nice client, which proceed to want ONE worker - its not a big deal right?
If I tell you its cos of the cute $2.50 Hello Kitty Mousepad at Rocher Pasar Malam, you will not believe right?
If its bcos I wore makeup (base & loose powder) for the first time since months back, its hard to believe the effect right?
If it cos I meet a friend from D.B*S for dinner which I have not meet since last year, its laughable right?
If I said its bcos I receive his sms unexpectedly again, you will want to kill me right?
If I say cos Oreo barked and was friendly when I reached home, you wonder if its really a case of man best friend effect?
If I say its because knowing the family is enjoying a good dinner be it in Singapore or China while I had mine , you think its too small to be a significant?
But really all these adds up, the adrenaline from work to deliver & knowing I am on track and moving on - makes me start being more at peace with myself.
If things doesn't seems to be working, keep faith...
Stay hungry Stay foolish won't you?

Times like this

2010-06-10T23:53:00.007+08:00

Yu & me - Yu joined KLian & me @ our fav hunt (15minutes)

Good food & Great architecture/interior design

Our NEW member! He doesn't have a name yet... ...

But isn't him handsome?

MAXIMUM EXCITEMENT

2010-06-09T22:22:00.001+08:00

WE GOT A DOG

Light at the end of the tunnel, when? Ever?

2010-06-03T00:00:00.004+08:00

I have officially becomes a slaves to Yen the editor who just fall short of giving me deadline to blog. Here's my mint new office. Love the black & white beams on the ceiling! And the white exterior with pops of green chairs! KAETF, bought u premium POCKY hopefully it last till when we meet! :P

+Yen my seat is the one nearest to the door ;)

I am surprised that everyone seems to remember my ATAS, tuition agency. But guilty as well. Another example of my idea that self destruct =S Second half of the year?

Bali

2010-05-31T22:14:00.039+08:00

The cosy room for the three girls. Duper like the simple resort concept of the room(s)

We had a kitchen, living room & dining area in the main resort with full household appliances

One out of the 3 rooms

The huge Master bedroom toilet with tub shower & two basins. HUGE

Where we laze and watch TV/play cards @ night

View from below UP

At the Botanic Garden of Bali -D1

Pre-Rain Shot. Its rains 2 out of 3 days we were there. Lucky my fair plan, but boo to wet weather

Peek a Boo

On and Off Showers of Rain

Inside the Cactus Greenhouse with PAM

So many of them, like species species of them!

Room Mates;)

Bali TravelMates

Doing the tourist poses, it was ironically air-con (*jacket)cool @ Bali.

We did strawberry picking for 20,000 RP. 1 kg for S$3?

My favourite part of the trip - WATERFALL.
When I felt the cool water (*I imagine it as pitera for my skin, haha) on my face, its such a great feeling even though its free, you know. Some pricier alternatives doesn't even come close.

YAY!

The number of Alcohols. Choya & Alize glasses for the night. I wondered what is the pull of alcohols besides drowning of sorrows and maybe helping you sleep easier at night.

Home melt Cadbury Chocolates with hand picked strawberries. WOW! YUMMY! Breathless again just looking at them now!

Another rainy day - D2 @ Ubud

Lava rocks. LX3 loves the sky more than greenery, literally. Its seems to take better images of clouds.

FOOD! Not the best meal I had at Bali, but sadly the only picture of food for the trip!

We took a number of wasted trips to the various disappointing tourist spots but its adds somehow to the whole holiday experience! We are definitely good at self console here ;)

In front of Uluwatu Temple

Because I am part at Geography, I think its the Indian Ocean if it exists. HAH

With Pam ;)

I really quite like this picture.
1. The B&W
2. The moment capture
The guys were really trying to "eat" the setting sun

Almost sun set

The private pool at Karma Resort No. 5

Me at the pool D3. Pre Beach Shoot. (We all wake up really early at Bali, like before 8am early! But somehow managed to survive through the day/night)

Finally on the last day, we had the sun full cooperation for the whole day!

DUPER "LOST" shot. Hee like as if its a no man island right. Skillfully taken by a stranger!

And on the next dinner, Teo Family had Balinese/Indonesian Food. How apt!

Papa likes to wear the clothes we give him on the immediate occasions. While mummy keeps them for special occasions, even if it means half a year later!

I am the Queen, really.. hahaha

All smiles =)

Everyone has a certain dress style. Some clothes one will never touch not even on SALES, and then we have twins/triples tops that really are not much different from each other. Looking at the magazine spreads and sartorial shoots, if only styles can be so easily achieved and bought. It can't. But secretly what I envy most is how someone can writes. Not in a purposeful way, but writes as in they are sharing their most personal deepest emotions and in the same time reveal as much wit effortlessly. Maybe effortlessly is the key here, but isn't it inborn? SAD!

Total Damage $30

2010-05-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

With each passing questions, I realize how little I remember anything from the CFA textbooks. I really want to pass still though, cos (i think) it will push me to do the impossible at work too.

I think I am the victim of my own doings. Like how I still am very panicky about my career, what if I never get any results here. (HOW?????!!!!!!) Like how I am already thinking of joining a barista workshop once freedom arrives. Or work part time somewhere to learn what I (think I) like, earn extra money and expand my contacts. I am good at coming up with ideas like that. But somehow, these ideas often self-destruct before I ever get to doing them (well).

(I think) I am pretty impossible.

I really love JAPANESE FOOD haha

2010-05-21T00:06:00.014+08:00

It was a super full lunch for me. It did not help that I nip others food as well ;)

Ze has a habit to listen to e music on his phone anytime anywhere. BAAAAAAADDDDD ROMANCEEEEE his favourite, i think ;)

Yu doesn't really like the camera while mummy loves it!! =)

Papa just love food hahaha, yen this is specially taken for you.

Lots of love and good food when you are back. ;) But meanwhile, i will just eat your share GLADLY.

A night retreat at JB with the company

Nice hotel with interesting details

A series of timed shoots at the pool which were really pretty though small

The night before where we had dinner then KTV, all part of team building & thanks to the team who all has been working hard...

raw egg that was surprisingly good with raw salmons. SLURP!

FULL STRENGTH finally, smiley

I am all excited about the next few weeks. About work and the possibilities. And the meet ups planned. Not to mention Bali which I really has zero expectation on. Definitely a good start to a vacation, i feel. And did I mention, my office will undergo a renovation when I am away. And be newly done up when I am back!!

A Brand New Me

2010-05-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

He is happily attached now. In his words, he wasn't sure before. But now he is. Somehow the news is always broke through me through the internet. I don't like MSN this way, but it is an excellent way to hide what you might let out through facial expression. And I am super bad in hiding them no matter hard I try.

Honestly, the news hit me hard and unexpectedly. There are some of those wth??!! questions marks, and a tiny sadness in me. But I am surprisingly coping well, and instead filled with a renewed optimism about my life from here. Well my heart works in strange ways, to make it die - you either leave it with no choice or provide an alternative to distract. In this case, I am happy that I can now look forward and " be prepared" and not be holding on to the past. It won't be fair to the future me if I had it any other way that I am sure.

Can't wait to see what happen next... like its been all these for all long already. Hee, can't wait ;)

UPDATES!

2010-05-04T22:07:00.013+08:00

Jazanne's 1st year bdae @ Pasir Ris. =) The cake was super cute with moos & apples.. Baby Jan was holding an actual apple & Iphone Apple at one time, so cute.

Last week was a simple Bdae + meet up with XJ & KLian... That night we share updates, dreams & hearts

Birthdays are magical dates. To me, its special not because of its numerical significance but the gentle reminders it often encourages. Efforts, memories, best intentions & wishes and the bond. Cos its like an excuse to get together and then you always remember why they are in your life....

The pictures of me above are as much of "See what I look like now" as they are to show how lobster red I turned when I drink. I been cutting down on alcohols cos not only doesnt it taste good its not good for my health and skin! Boo, that I had to drink quite a bit recently cos alcohols seems to be a working culture- for me at least. However the good food & times comes with it, so can't say its all bad! ;) I love food. And I must mention that I caught the utmost attention of a 5.5 year old boy! It was fun playing with him , and he saves me from downing lots of drinks too!

Month of May is my mugging month for the exam in June. I can't wait to see how much I can squeeze in from now to June 7.

SIGHZ

2010-04-29T18:20:00.002+08:00

School was the best. It is the best.
And thinking back, I wish I had taken more out of my youth then.
If I could turn back time,
I will take more chances, and
work harder in knowing what I want.
Anything to not be here now.

Work hasn't been going smoothly,
after almost two months - I have not been accepted.
Due to my incompetency Yes
Due to where I came from Yes Too

Tell me I am still young, and that it is my choice;
I know.
The first one who need to change is myself.
And wish I don't have to do this alone

Things definitely can be better
but it is up to me isn't it?

You see I know...

wish you were here SERIOUSLY

2010-04-25T23:05:00.009+08:00

the purpose of this entry is just to make Yen jealous! She miss out lots & we do miss her having around too! :) My partner in crime and my twin... I know you probably want to kill me at this moment ;P

this dinner is a get together dinner with all the shareholders and partners of the company(local & oversea). And the families of all are invited as well. The children, the woman behind every successful man. .. This is a story of friends in bad and good times, of failures and climbing up from where you fell, of rags to better in time, and never giving up no matter what...

=)

New Love

2010-04-22T23:35:00.004+08:00

Was watching this MTV, and realised 彭于晏 Eddie is really good looking! And look a lot like Daniel Wu, who is probably the more normal one on my star crush list. It helps that the both the song and MTV are very entertaining hence the overdose on A-Lin...

现在我很幸福

2010-04-22T23:19:00.001+08:00

他的手掌有种粗糙的体贴
他在我需要时候出现身边
被你伤的那些 崩溃眼泪
多亏他无私的奉陪
哪天要是和你真的再见面
谁都不要再提醒那一段从前
有些事不面对 反而安心安全
你无权再动摇我的世界
现在我有了幸福 有人照顾 应该知足
你不像他 从不让我哭
可是我越想投入 越是生疏 抱得再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌 不断让步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良 有时残酷 我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无反顾
哪天要是和你真的再见面
我不会提到最后和他的一切
面对不爱的人 我终于谅解了
曾经你用无言画的句点
现在我有了幸福 有人照顾 应该知足
你不像他 从不让我哭
可是我越想投入 越是生疏 抱得再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌 不断让步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良 有时残酷 我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无反顾
现在我有了幸福 有人照顾 应该知足
你不像他 从不让我哭
可是我越想投入 越是生疏 抱得再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌 不断让步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良 有时残酷 我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无反顾
现在我不停忙碌 不断让步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良 有时残酷 我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无反顾

Its not a date

2010-04-20T23:12:00.003+08:00

I just returned from the above restaurant - JANN. A dinner that lasted nearly 3 hours, a little too long for me but an experience never the less. We had the food tasting menu which includes about 7-9 dishes like Foie Gras, Caviar and Wagyu Beef. The few items that I recognized and have a slight idea on whats going on. Unique names of food never fail to make me smile :) There is the heirloom tomatoes too, which is so cute a name!

The view at the 70th food was sort of hidden as we were seated furthest away from the window. But as the lightning and thunder flashes across the sky, its a beautiful sight too! It is my first fine dining experience and I have to admit as much as i thought I will like it, it is just a New Experience. The tiny portions - Not Me. The long interim between food - can be unbearable. (guess it should be more anticipation) People watching is quite fun though.

As per our past dates, he never fail to impress. I think we have never went to a same restaurant twice. And often, its those places that I had never heard of before. It could be the novelty that he brings with him. The fine places that I am brought to and not have to worry about the bills. He definitely is the best I might ever have & maybe that's why I have never seem to be able to let go. If he is right - if I am happy like that , its okay right then I ought to not think too much.

Everything go in cycles & as much as I wonder if I can do without this person in my life (& actually think I can sometimes) - We have been through this so many times that I doubt I can made it through the end. So I don't dare to try again, in case I end up back at square one AND very stupid.

second thoughts

2010-03-19T17:59:00.002+08:00

Past events has shown spontanteous thoughts turn to actions results in
a 50% chance of disasters
with an equal chance of :) worthy!

We shall see

Pictorial

2010-03-15T22:01:00.023+08:00

Borrowed lil cz spects and did what I do best,
make a fool of myself

We did a similar one some time back! Fun Loving Us!

Extra Allowance from CNY - kids table

Day 1 CNY: Bowling Bonding, even ah ma went!

Wo De Jia Ren

Moments Captured

Full Strength

PM activities - KTV

Camero : Ze's Fifi Rabbit?

Yen like images like above, contrast

Boy bands~

ROAR to the New Year

Groupie

Beautiful experience & wonderful colleagues

CNY cum fare well lunch

Yen's Work Stint to Chengdu

4/7 flowers ;)

Family + Kloon

Friendship of more than a decade, 7 flowers hee

Mac Breakie treat from Yen

Dinner, Yogurt Icecream & Movie with GG

Yen we will miss you!

Hollow Space

2010-02-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Recently I feel different. Most times, nothing seem to have changed. I can feel my heart losing faith at the same time. Then I can't help feeling indifferent. For the things that I should do. Or for what is happening around me. Its not fair to say nothing has been going well, because I have been lucky.

However these days I can't seem to have conversations, neither have I learn to maintain eye contact. Its as if I cannot face anybody nor leave isolation island. Maybe its part of the growing old process, sometimes we grow apart.

I guess I am just tired of being still at the same point after so long. With the new year, I wished for complete indifference

wont you

ATAS

2010-02-02T12:57:00.002+08:00

Hey friends ,
I HAVE ATAS!

My new inspiration as a result of boredom(more so), Excess Optimisms + Impulse to start something! & heartaches - I present you Amelia Tuition Agency Singapore (online for now).

As most of you should know, I have been tutoring for more than 5 years already. And I have always love teaching (& also earning the extra pocket money). I have dreams to open my own tuition center where I will can be a tutor & boss all in one! For now, that is a dream as we know dreams without results are nothing to show. Hence I am starting ATAS where I need your help - if you know of anyone who needs tuition/or someone who wants to be a tutor. Can you get them to visit my website at ATAS or email me at ameliatuition.atas@gmail.com?

Much Love,
Ning

What happen in Jan 2010

2010-01-26T19:30:00.008+08:00

G.G First Meet -up & Bdae Celebration :)

Can already picture us 10 years down the road.. ;)

Out of tune, with Audio, SO BRAVE ME

CNY Dinner + KTV

Best wishes to the best gal ;)

2010 - Year of more meet ups for DMNS

As you can see with my LX3, I have been diligently capturing moments at the various meet ups! I hope for the 2010 will be a better year for all of us, with good news, wise choices and wonderful people (new/old) in our life.
ALA ~
HAPPY BAH

Sea Advertures or maybe not..

2010-01-26T18:42:00.009+08:00

The Brave Ones

A Case of Too Much Goodies

When We Land

Beautifully Transparent

Where we had Yummy Thai-Yakult ;)

The Royal Caribbean was honestly limiting in choices to eat, to do and to see. But I guess it could just that we are all pampered by needing something to do and just cannot sit still. I found myself sleeping a lot when I am convinced by Yen's theory of "It will NOT be like that when we are back at work", so the sleeping monster included me in his grand plans too. But I am happy to share that I climbed all three rock walls(with two out of three futile attempts = I never move pass the easy wall) , soaking in the sea-water green swimming pool with yu & ze (the ice cream cone at the end makes it all worth the scorching sun,yum!) AND lose all US20 on jackpots. =D

Whether this year with Yen going away to China (for less than a year I hope), we will be going to anywhere else - I don't know. But trips oversea really is like mails to me.... even if it turn out to be bills, there is always something heartening to receive something with your name on it. No link perhaps, but I guess I always love the process of going oversea. More so than the actual landing at foreign land.